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Monday, October 20th, 2008
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4:33 am - longgggg time
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so its 4:30 in the morning. i want to start by saying that bars should never have been invented. im half sober, cus i played poker for 4 hours, came up around 100 dollas extra, but they take ur drinks at like 230, lame. so i got a headache and played for 2 more hours. you know, life is retarted and weird, everyone i meet knows someone i already know, and everyone i know knows someone i know...it goes around in circles, its cool tho..right? this girl gave me a ride tonite, sabrina, really cool, we discussed in our short ride many conundrums of life. i think i love her. but thats besides the point, the point is.....well i dont know what the point is, but you should be happy i am writing.
im excited to visit home, it feels like i dont have enuf time to visit everyone, and i want to hang out with my brother as much as possible...im goin to a red wings game with him, YAY! and i want to party with him for new years....which he has this thing that sounds uber fun!...anywho, i dont know how im gonna fit it all in, ive got to mingle with the fosselman folks as well, and maybe meet who could be my future sister in law -gag- she sounds stupid, juss like steves twin...hahahahha. hes retardo as well, hes like met this girl once and is gonna propose...i think he jus wants to beat steve cus hes jealous, whatev....
allyson didnt pick me up, i wonder where she is.
i am drunk and this is no fun cus she has the pot.
you know, getting high makes people better people. i ALMOST hate people who dont get high, i think they are somewhat stupar...they dont know what their missing...please dont comment on this, i am juss rambling incoherently to no one.
my grama is beautiful.
i took my friends money tonite in poker, it was funny, he made a scene. i love him.
good nite i dont wanna talk no more~~!
life is amazing. i love myself....
and...you...should...too...
current mood:  drunk
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| Sunday, March 2nd, 2008
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1:42 pm - Changes
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Lots has changed. too much to even catch up on. Life is good. Im living a dream.
I love everything about you.
XOXO
current mood: high
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| Saturday, December 23rd, 2006
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10:14 pm - hey!
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wow! so its been quite a while since ive written. i guess i never know what to write about. Its the end of 2006 soon, and what a year it has been! Steve and i are still together and celebrated our 6 months a few days ago (21st)... christmas is monday and its not that exciting this year but oh well its all about being with the one you love anyways. im hoping that i will be the next one to get married hehe. We found this ginormous apartment, it reminds me of the real world...its 6 bedrooms and 1500 a month...me steve sarah clint erik and trevor are looking into it. its so cool i would love it. its two stories and above a bar. its hard to even describe but it would take ur breath away. im not gonna hold my breath tho, its hard to count on that many roomates. in a month and a half i will be 21 and nothing is going to hold me back from doing something with my life. Every day with steve is a new blessing and i find new reasons to love him every second of everyday. ive been blessed beyond belief. I miss my marisa and having her 10 min away even though we didnt get to see eachother that often still, i knew she was right around the block. but its a new year and theres only better things to come. i will see you soon my love! its hard to believe that ive been out of highschool for 3 years now. where has the time gone? i was sstarting to feel sick the other day when i realized how much time i wasted selfishly and foolishly..but life goes on and i suppose i shouldnt dwell on mistakes of the past. its weird...alot of those "bad times" have slowly faded out of my memory and its like it never happend...like its weird to picture me with jan for so long and living together...i donno how to explain it...
so im only 1200 in debt right now! woo hoo lol! damn fucking drivers responsibility fees fucking rack up...thats 3 count em 3 now! i still havent paid them. err annoying. is it wrong to wonder if when my dad dies of cancer he will leave me money? errr yeah now that i wrote that i feel like a guilty bitch...but hey maybe we will finally have some "child support" damn bastard....err now that was even worse. stop me now. Ha! no but seriously~! show me da money~! hah only kidding. man am i freakin high or something? no! maybe thats the problem.
so ive been collecting movies. i have 463 now. i bet im beating you! if i named them all you would be so fucking jealous. im not even close to steve he has like 1600. damn the man.
i want a leg lamp for jesuschristmas santa. pleeeeeese!
also i would like you to destroy all the nasty beeotches of this world. they are annoying me profusely.
i knocked a girl out a few weeks ago at the bar. no i was not wasted jusst buzzed. and yes she fuckin had it coming. she was bein a rude ass bitch. it was hee-fucking-larious. i went *bam* *bam* *bam* (in the face) she fell under a table and cried for like 10 minutes and was excorted out. everyone thanked me cus she was stupid. i did it for all the dope ass chicks in this world. man i would love to see her again.
in other news steves mom decided to wash my 100% wool coat (my favorite to be exact) the other day...it used to go to my knees...now it comes above my waist...yeah im pissed...so if any of u skinny bitches want it its yours lol.
well ive done enough annoying banter. and marisa is the only one that will read this anyways lol. toodles
i love yoU!
current mood:  chipper
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| Sunday, August 27th, 2006
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1:56 pm - life update
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So, long time no write. seems to be the story with me.
This summer has been nothing like any other summer.
amazing highs and lows, and breathtaking happenings to say the least.
i have been blessed to find someone so special that even i for once am at a loss for words.
it seems soo perfect that i sumtimes find myself trying to find imperfections that dont exist.
this is my growing year, im not quite a full blown adult as far as age goes until february... and as far as responsibility goes, im not an adult either. it seems like just when i know what i wanna do, i get a curve ball. but this time im staying strong. im just trying to figure things out. i lost my job the other day, a job that had me on the fast track to independence...and i didnt deserve it. its amazing how many caniving girls there are in the world...i hope they feel good about themselves...
lately ive been confused as fuck. it seems like since i was younger and dating jan, we lived together and talked of "marriage"...thank god we didnt....but anyways it seems like thats all ive done, right after him i met matt, and we were together how long who knows, and that was supposed to be forever too...and look how those turned out. then just as i was thinking bout gettting bacck with matt, i met steve...who is my sunshine....and i love him much...and i WOULD fucking marry him....but i also have in the back of my head that what if feeling....i donno.... is he going to wake up and change his mind? is he going to start treating me like shit? am i too young to settle down? and if i am then why would god send me my angel already and so soon. i guess atleast i have been blessed to find love 3 times...well i guess i dont even know if jan was capable of love....but i thought so.
alls i know is that sometimes i think i love him too much and it scares me. hes my best friend right now, sometimes i feel like hes my only friend too....and i dont like being so dependent on one person, cus people have a tendency to let me down.
what i would really love to do is just leave this place and not look back. i feel like theres more to life then what ive seen. i wanna go somewhere where i dont see a single person i know for months...where im forced to meet new people and get out of my hole, where i can just spend time on myself, and not always worry about making others happy. i need to make MYSELF happy/
for once in my life ive had enough... im sick of doing favors for people and getting nothing in return, im sick of being thoughtful and generous to thoughtless and selfish people, im sick of kissing peoples asses, im sick of feeling bad for not calling someone as much as i should when they dont call me either, and im sick of answering my phone when i really dont want to. im sick of watching what i say, im sick of caring so much, im sick of being so close but so far away, im sick of being afraid to just be myself, im sick of worrying, im sick of being self-conscious./ im sick of feeling like im not good enough. im sick of this town, this place, this state, this country, and the people in it. im sick of people that dont care about anyone but themselves.
current mood:  contemplative
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| Friday, June 23rd, 2006
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2:27 pm - THAT THING THEY CALL....
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LOVE. im falling into it as we speak. he completely takes over my thoughts all day. its like a plague, only a good one, one thats kills off all the craZy serial killers and all the rapists/molesters...and just makes the world right. Its hard to begin to describe it, but that paints a picture. Think of the greatest feeling you've ever had and multiply it by...well lets get crazy, multiply it by a million. yeah...im feeling THAT great. For some reason in my life, when one thing goes bad..alot of things go bad....but when something good happens, a whole lot of good happens....but those kind of situations (the good ones) dont happen all that often..until now. I'm out of debt, im off probation, i found the man of my dreams, and im starting school in the fall, and i dont have any of my shitty backstabbing friends anymore or loser ex boyfriends fucking things up for me...ive made new great friends, and alot of them. I am officially an adult and im goin head high into the grown up world. The only thing im missing is a job, thats the hardest one....but as long as i stay positive i can do anything. You know they say every choice you make changes ur future, or atleast i believe that. Everything happens for a reason, yes reasons we dont know, but in the long scheme of things it all adds up. pardon me while i ramble...its just that sooo much is running through my head lately..and right smack in the middle is who i think is my soulmate, so lets talk about him...since that was supposed to be the focus of my entry. Stephen Fosselman, the man of my dreams. you know, when you sat and thought about what you want in a man (good personality, good looks, funny, charming, sincere, HONEST,...etc etc)...yes, I, jenny biers, mrs "i fall for losers and liers", have found the "not perfect" but way close enough...i say not perfect because but ofcourse, no ones perfect....have found the man of my dreams. the boy that makes me a corndog and puts a smiley face in ketchup on the plate, the boy that would much rather see me happy, then ever try to make me sad, the boy that sticks up for me when anyone has any drama to start, the boy that kisses me like he never plans on kissing another person. the boy that introduces me to his parents, and doesnt get nervous, the boy that talks about our future...and isnt scared. the boy that doesnt hold back, and tells me what hes thinking, and asks what im thinking too. the boy that i plan on cuddling on the couch and watching movies with, for the rest of our lives. and im not going overboard here. its pretty much too good to be true, but not. IT IS TRUE and its PERFECT and as god as my witness, i dont need any other man but him.
I'll fill you in more later ;-)
current mood: cheerful
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| Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
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5:54 pm - whats up
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just in case you go ahead and read my journal again...i just want you to know...your a nosey little skank-ass mongoloid elf-tit lookin' sonofabitch whore... and i think its funny ur a crack head now. PEACE UP BITCH. latas
current mood: amused
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| Monday, March 6th, 2006
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4:18 pm - updizzle fo shizzle
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well its been months since ive updated it seems...so here goes.
work is work and life is life.
nothing all too new but its working.
where do i start.
i turned 20, which means im no longer a teenager. Kim threw me a party, i got drunk and made out with kims friend ben and now he wont stop calling me lol.
ive been playing alot of poker and won 180$ the other night in a tournament and im having a really good time.
i went to my first probation meeting today for the drunken incident, and she isnt drug testing me so im in the clear, which is a total weight off my back cus i was so nervous, it could have been the end today if she tested me.
so thats a plus.
uhm summer is approaching...i dont know what this summer will bring but im anxious to see..
lately ive been having really weird dreams involving a pink house and living at my old house and it being broken into, stalkers, and old babysitters of mine... i dunno it was weird and hard to explain but i reemember beeing scared.
im still single. lets rephrase... "IM SINGLE!!! YAY!!!" i truly honestly dont want a damn boyfriend right now...ive learned to embrace my boyfriend-challenged-ness with a pinch of sugar.
i love being single, and for once i have the control.
when i meet someone new im not looking for that person to be my new boy toy which
makes it all the less dramatic, im not pushing anything, and im letting human nature
take its course.
ive met a few good friends in the course too.
ive been hanging out once or twice a week with this boy andrew that i met at my friend aarons party a couple months ago..we like made out for hours at the party, i didnt remember giving him my number...he called me...and the rest is as we say hiiistory. lol anyways hes a way fun decent person..hes in a band and i love his friends...plus he has girls that are good friends that i actually like..which is a bonus.
for some reason lately ive been attracting other ethnicities..i got asked out by a puerto rican, an "i think hes like probably part kaldeon ?sp? or like arabic maybe" ..and a part black part sicilian all in a couple weeks...but they are all three too eager for me so i had to pass
i went to my first probation meeting today for the drunken incident...
and it turns out im not getting tested which means i dont have to stop smoking pot lol
not that i stopped anyways but it was a close one.
i just dont feel like stopping, it doesnt get me in trouble and it makes me not be a bitch.
hmmmmmmm
lately ive been thinking that maybe i need to sensor myself a bit more, like watch what i say. ive always prided myself on being real and not sugar coating what i really feel and just saying whats on my mind no matter what usually...but maybe thats not the way to get through life. i dunno ive been thinking maybe my personality is a bit much sometimes and that i need to settle it down. when i think back i find that im saying alot that once you get to know me you love me...which is true...but sometimes people dont have a chance to get to know you and just have their first or second or third impression to go by. ive just found that i havent really gotten anywhere by telling someone straight to their face their annoying...and no one gets anywhere by talking behind backs either which i take great pride in saying that i try to not do that...so maybe the best is to just not say anything at all.....haha sounds like something my mom used to tell me in middle school when my friends were being jerks...but she was right and it took me some 8 or so years to figure it out.
Advice of today:
if hes not calling you...hes just not that into you.
takin from the most self-helping book (for me atleast) "hes just not that into you" a new york times best seller...buy it read it...it will change your life i promise :-)
well anyways i dunno...im not on the computer much but i wanna keep in touch so call me 810 343 0765
current mood:  awake
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| Sunday, November 13th, 2005
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2:47 pm
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well me and matt are officially over and its time to move on....
with my life and with everything.
by the middle to end of next year, and this is already in the planning stages..
me and robin are moving to tennessee, outside of nashville and starting a life.
ive come to the realization that i havent met anyone of substance
or of lasting importance, since kindergarten.
i mean seriously think about it... back then the only "backstabbing" i had to take from my friends
was a little bit of catty jealousness, that we were all guilty of at one point or another.
but for the most part, we all loved eachother, some in different ways, but the overall scheme of things was there.
in the past few years ive come across nothing but best friends that will break your ever loving heart every chance they get. i could write a book. sometimes it hurts so much that it actually makes me wonder if maybe i AM destined to be walked all over the rest of my life unless i do something to fix it.
so heres what i did.
i dropped my man-stealing, pathological-lying, substance-abusing, bitch-by-birth sluts of friends...and instead of replacing them with new ones...like i always do...i instead started hanging out with old friends, friends that i could never figure out a reason as to why they werent my friends anymore...and consequently, they couldnt figure out why either.
so instead of going out every nite drinking and god knows what else,
ive been hanging at home more...cus i realized, why the fuck do i have to have something to do everynite?
i mean, it would get to the point of where i would hang out with jerks, just to have something to do...
and it wasnt healthy and alls it left me with was feeling inadequite the whole next week.
so with this new time on my hands,
ive been slowly fixing some of the mistakes i made
getting my shit together
so that by this time next year i will have a clean slate
I JUST HOPE ITS NOT TOO LATE>
i mean seriosly, for a little while there... i had so much negative energy around me
that im sure it made me more negative then necessary, and in turn i was always fucking up or what have you.
and besides.....
if you hang out with losers who arent doing anything with there lives and arent going to...
im pretty dang sure it makes you a loser too.
who seriously wants to be 29, still living at home, 2 DUI's under your belt---which prevents you from getting ur cosmetology license, still sleeping around, still backstabbing friends, still getting drunk everynite, still working a dead-end job, and still fucking up?
DEFINATELY NOT ME.
atleast i have my friends to thank for ONE thing....
their lives definately make me realize what i DONT want mine to be like.
WORTHLESS.
current mood: accomplished
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| Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
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11:28 am
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Put an X next to the ones you've done
(x) smoked a cigarette
(x ) smoked a cigar
(x ) smoked anything else
(x ) made out with a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( x) been fired
( x) snuck out of parent's house
(x)had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( /) been arrested
(x ) made out with a stranger
(/ ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
( x) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die
( ) had/have a crush on one of your LIVE JOURNAL friends
(x) been to Canada
() been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( x) thrown up in a bar
( x) eaten Sushi
( x) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
( ) been moshing at a concert
(x) been in an abusive relationship
(x)taken painkillers.
(x) love someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
( had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x)been lonely
( xxx)Fallen asleep at work/school/church
(x ) own a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x ) touched a snake
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat
(x ) won a contest
(x been susupended from school
( x) had detentin for being late.
(x) been in a car accident
( ( had/have braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes (don't deny it)
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x ) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x ) sang karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
(x) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sunset with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
( )have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
( x)had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
( x) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( x) screamed "penis" in class
(x) ate dog food
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) sang in the shower
(x )have a little black dress
(x ) fucked in a park
(x) fucked in the bathoom
(x) had a dream that you married someone
( ) glued your hand to something
(x) got your toungue stuck to a pole (a mailbox lol)
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
( ) had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( )done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didnt take a shower for a week
( x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have more than 50 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school
(x )gone streaking
(x ) played ding-dong-ditch
(x ) played chicken fight
(x ) been pushed into a pool with all your chothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
( ) caught a fish then ate it
( x) made porn--
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test.
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x ) slept naked
(x) French braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
( ) been kicked out of your house
current mood:  sleepy
current music: akon- lonely (im obsessed)
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| Sunday, September 4th, 2005
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11:01 am - hells yeah
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the concert was fuckin awesome.
i got a sweet sweatshirt...
but now its missing wtf!!!!
were hoping maybe i dropped it in amys drive way and her mom picked it up
but its not lookin good.
then i went to a party at trevors
which was fun until some hippy chick wanted to fight
lol
i was tryin to hook up my friend scotty with lindsey
cus they like eachother
and i guess she was jealous cus she likes him or something
cus she kept making little fuckin catty comments to me
and finally i was like wtf hairy bitch?!
and shit went down but i wasnt about to fight her in trevors house
but atleast everyone was on my side
lol
i had yesterday off
but me and matt were really hungover
so we woke up at 1, then took another nap from 3 til 7 lol
then i got showered up and we went out to eat at zukey
and decided not to go to rays party cus we were feeling good and were still tired.
so now we juss got up
i gotta work today at 4 and im tryin to get matt to go to the mall
but hes being a turd.
hmmmmm.
imma take off
see ya!
current mood:  aggravated
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| Wednesday, August 31st, 2005
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8:08 pm - JUST CANT WAIT
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friday is brookes and dunn, and big n rich!!!!!!!!
i can NOT fuckin wait!
me and amy gonna party like rock stars!!
i tried on my outfit and my cowboy hat i got in maine
and i look so hot! lol
i'd do me if i was a guy
hah!
me and matt juss got back from kroger, he bought me flavor ices!!!!!!!!!! yes!!!!!!!!!!
i cant wait til they freeze.
this weekend is supposed to be very eventful
i didnt get my schedule yet for saturday and on......
so hopefully its not fuckin shitty!
me and matt are going to look at rings o.O hehehehehehe
and theres rays birfday party, and a mud bog...i gotta decide which one i wanna go to
ahhh
and sunday is poker nite over at ben and matts apartment, and i cant wait to win some money
and monday is labor day..
and yeah...
im mostly lookin forward to friday !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anywho..
lifes great when you have a boyfriend like mine.
i cant even explain it.
ive never been this happy in my entire life.
i love my fuckin job too.
later gators!
luv me
current mood: happy
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| Saturday, August 27th, 2005
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11:15 am - helloww!
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well things are great.
im back from maine which was alrite i guess.
started crackerbarrel monday which has been awesome and i love it.
this boy devin that was in training with me is my age and hes totally cool and awesome
so that has made it a blast.
he even hung out with me and amy the other nite
we went to a livingston underground concert but it was lame
so we left and got a case of beer lol
then we went to stout and lu and carls to find jen
and ended up stayin the whole time lol
i danced with some of my brothers old friends..HA!
and one is married....heh
these are like friends that i wanted back in highschool
and now there like HI JENNI!! lol its funny
matt and i are wonderful as usual.
and i love him very much.
marisas wedding was fun
and she looked BEAUTIFUL!
i did her hair :-)
matt came with me too.
then we went and hung out at ben and matts apartment (not my matt)
and played cards and went out to dinner at clearys
it was fun.
other than that......
I CANT WAIT TIL I GET TO MARRY Matt LOL.
and you all better come!!!!!!
cee ya!
love me
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| Tuesday, August 16th, 2005
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8:03 pm
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ive actually had a really good time the last couple days.
today was awesome and fun!!
tomorrow i come home!!
i cant wait to see matt and give errybody their gifts!!
<3 me
current mood:  lazy
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| Sunday, August 14th, 2005
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11:01 pm - *.*
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well today wasnt too bad. we did sight seeing all day, and i found alot of sea glass which was fun.
tuesday were taking a ferry into bar harbor, and hopefully renting mopeds. i guess they have alot of shops and restaurants there and its really big and nice so im looking forward to it.
tomorrow will prolly suck but i will make the most of it.
i just cant wait to be home :-)
marisas wedding friday! countin down the days!!
love,
me
current mood:  drained
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| Saturday, August 13th, 2005
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8:38 pm - kill me please
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ok....im on vacation....and im on the computer.....what does that say???
yeah this place fucking sucks and i want to come back to civilization...never again will i believe my mom when it comes to a place ive never been and never heard anything about except how pretty it is...thats exactly it....alls it is is "pretty" and thats only right there at the water...which is not even that close to us...i cried myself to sleep last nite...and today....my most exciting event was sitting and eating....i judged a fucking parade.......which was worse than the 4th of july parade in hartland....i met miss maine....who isnt even from maine...shes from new hampshire???????????? wtf???
if i ever hear anyone say they hate michigan, or brighton, or howell, or hartland ever again i will slap you. you really dont know how good we have it....guess what were doing tomorrow??? were driving an hour to walmart.....yeah...........walmart......i have one of those 5 minutes away...
please let these few days go quick.....i just want to be home. i miss my friends and my boyfriend. and my bed. and my home. and my tanning booth lol. gosh.
does someone want to come get me???
love you miss you all!!!!!!!!!!!
love
me
current mood:  crappy
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| Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
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4:01 pm - wow!!
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well i just had my second interview at cracker barrel and let me tell you, it was nerve racking having to sit there and talk to the district and general manager and the lady in the head of training.!!! ahhh!!
i get such social anxiety when i have to talk to complete strangers, expecially in interviews, but i must have been good cus i got the job and i start the monday after i get back from maine.
which reminds me, i leave in two days!!
while were there i get to judge the miss maine pageant, go lobster fishing, and god knows what else! but i cant wait!!
matt and i are wonderful as usual. :-)
i got my dress for marisas wedding! its cute and im happy with it. im nervous though cus im so freakin out of shape. yet i cant seem to get the motivation to do anything about it so its my own damn fault! heh.
tomorrow i go see my P.O. and i have to figure out an excuse as to why i dont have a pay stub, im just going to say i lost it lol.
hopefully within the next couple months mat and i will have enough saved up to move out. its going to be so wonderful to finally have someone to help me out with everything, when me and jan lived together it was like i was on my own, but finally i have found my other half and its all so heartwarming (gag) lol. jk. but no it will be nice to have my own place again.
marisa pretty soon ur gonna have to be in MY wedding :-) too bad gage wont be old enough to be a ring barrer lol.
jen's in las vegas right now. i hope shes safe!!!!! shes been a little on the wild "im a crazy slut" phaze lately, but i think she exhausted her resources. maybe now that drea's out of the picture she will be back to her normal jen self and i will love her again :-) nah i still love her, i just hate talking to people and having to hear about how drunk and drugged up they got last nite, and the nite before and the nite before and who they fucked and who they fucked over...naw mean? but nevertheless i love her.
im gonna miss matt and amy while im on vacation!! if im not with matt, im with amy...and so on and so forth, so what are they gonna do with out me??? they better miss me!!! heh.
well anywho ya'll im gonna jet. got places to go and my baby to kiss!!
later~!
jenni
current mood: accomplished
current music: click click click
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| Thursday, July 28th, 2005
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6:39 pm - so ghetto so ghetto whats up
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everything is completely awesome nowadays and it isnt going to change.
matt and i are back together, have been for awhile now.
and i couldnt ask for ANY MORE.
he treats me the way i should be treated
and i love him for that. SO MUCH.
in the future....
i will most likely be Jenny janecke..hehehe
lalalala
this weekend is party time
cus amys birthday was on tuesday but she had to work
in two weeks i leave for maine.
god i cant wait.
then its marisas wedding :) YAY!
well short entry. but all in all im extremely happy
im loving life!
see yas!
<3 me
current mood: ecstatic
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| Sunday, June 5th, 2005
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7:20 pm
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marisa asked me to be in her wedding :-)
im so excited, this will be the first one ive been since i was younger and was always a flower girl
its amazing how things come together.
<3
last nite was a tad too crazy for me
i believe i topped myself and my friends with this one :-/
its way too hot out today. ugh.
im taken off.
jenni
current mood: hot
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| Friday, June 3rd, 2005
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5:14 pm - how true
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The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. |
current mood:  calm
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| Tuesday, May 31st, 2005
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10:25 pm - no subject
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what a crazy weekend i had..
thursday buffalo wild wings and my 13 jager bombs
friday work, then brew bobs, then gregs, then ann arbor party
saturday slept til 5 cus didnt go to bed til 10ish then gregs, then bonfire party at amys
sunday worked, then fuse-in (gay name), where i tried something new, and saw amanda, and everyone else
then stayed up til 7 hanging out with tommy, chris, aaron and alex
monday got to work 1 1/2 hrs late but its ok cus amy opened on time and it was juss me and her :-)
came home, went and got some more beers, and some jack daniels coolers, cus they sounded good
then hung out with amy, matt and trevor
drank some beers got some herb smoked some herb played some euchre where me and amy kicked their ass 4 times
got mcdonalds and 3
amy was drunk
i was sober (they brought canned beers..ugh...as amy would say, "ur a picky drinker"
i drink for the taste...and if it gets me drunk so be it lol
and then work today.
the end.
whooh.
just got good news..
matts hot friend is meeting me at my house at 11:30
maybe i can get laid o.O
too badd its matts friend, but hey, we havent been together since i dumped him in february so its not my problem
hahahahhaa
god guys are so easy.
i got free drinks all nite thursday
and he didnt get none
then yesterday he bought me a bag, food, and beer for me and amy
and he still didnt get none
then he got pissed cus we kicked his ass at cards.
such a tool.
i think thats why i dont feel bad using him.
im completely blunt and sorta rude about it too......
i am a bad person.
kill me.
anyways...
work is annoying as fuck
and i constantly just want to punch people..
sometimes for almost no reason.
customers irritate me, and im really starting to feel like if i dont get out soon i may grow to be one of those cooky old ladies that just freaks out about shit and has a short temper span
that or carol aka the "boss"...who just freakin laughs for hours and looks weird while doing it.
hmm things to ponder.
lately i'll go to places, or parties or what have you and i just sit and analyze everyones motives and it sorta makes me laugh because if u know the signs you can just totally see through what a guys saying...prolly doesnt make sense but heres an example of it...
ok so amys friends in ann arbor are totally all nice and shit...well anywho, the first time there awhile ago this kid justin was totally hitting on me blah blah, well i slept in his room on the same bed just cus there was sorta no where else, and sorta becus i just wanted to prove a point...so hes like wanna make out and im like no...then went to bed, and didnt do anything, woke up left...then the next couple times he would still be nice and talk to me..and i would still act alloof..so then we were over there last week and i was drunk and stoned and i was telling amy, im like im gonna do him tonite, lol, so i fucked up and fell asleep during the movie , and he had went to bed, so when i woke up , i went in there, did him, then left, didnt act weird didnt ask for number, nothing...ive learned how to act totally cool, i treat it like a guy treats it...cus i really dont care anymore....well so then at the bonfire, jeremiah this other hot kid that lives there, was hitting on me and justin was with another girl, but i really truly wasnt jealous and thats exciting, well so i stringed jeremiah along for awhile, just like moving away when he would come at me, but it was sooo funny becus hes spitting all these lines, thinking i think hes serious, when if i didnt learn how to call someones bluff, i would have fell for, cus let me tell you he was good at talking, anyways, i dont know where im going with this but its fun to play with guys heads..
and another different example of how this can go wrong.....my friend *** has been doing it with kyle at the house for awhile, making it obvious that it was a fuck buddy thing, thinking she was doing the right thing becus she was just treating him like just a friend because it wasnt obvious how he viewed the relationship, well greg was at the party, which is one of the good friends of the boys'house, and after *** did kyle, he went to bed, and she got with greg........lol..........left her shirt in the eh'hem bathroom and gets a call 2 days later and doesnt pick it up...message says hey amy its kyle just wondering what ur doin and who ur doin..wondering when ur gonna get ur shirt, i dont want it hanging here, then justin says in back ground "if u dont come get ur shirt its goin in my room and i get you next"...heh...i have to laugh...and *** thinks they still may not know.......but the moral is that she played it cool like guys do...and he got mad...cus maybe he had feelings?...but at the same time guys do it all the time...they sleep with like fifty girls, but when we do it were "sluts"...but where do u draw the line??
i think that if people were just honest about there feelings and took whatever response they got from the other person thean maybe there would be less confusion and people wouldnt have to always play it cool..and i think more people would be happier cus they wouldnt have to bottle things in..
god that was long and annoying and i dont blame u if u dont read it all.
off to smoke my two favorite habits...
then get laid.
ahhhh. i will get some good sleep and tomorrow is my day off.
yess.
my next entry will be a full recap of this years techno experience.
til then.
bye.
current mood:  horny
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